Remembering Sunday

Woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes,
Starting making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days.
Leaning out into the breeze, remembering Sunday he falls to his knees.
They had breakfast together,
But two eggs don't last like the feeling of what he needs.

Now this place is familiar to him.
She pulls on his hand with a devilish grin.
She led him upstairs, she led him up stairs,
Left him dying to get in.

Forgive me I’m trying to find
My calling, I’m calling at night.
Don’t mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She’s been running through my dreams,
And its driving me crazy it seems.
I’m gonna ask her to marry me.

Even though she doesn’t believe in love,
He’s determined to call her bluff.
Who can deny these butterflies, they’re filling his gut.
Waking the neighbors,
Unfamiliar faces he pleads though he tries
But he’s only tonight.
Now he’s dying to get inside.

Forgive me I’m trying to find
My calling, I’m calling at night.
Don’t mean to be a bother
But have you seen this girl?
She’s been running through my dreams,
And its driving me crazy it seems
I’m gonna ask her to marry me.

The neighbors said she moved away.
Funny how it rained all day..
I didn’t think much of it then, but it started to all make sense
Oh I can see now that all of these clouds
Are following me in my desperate endeavor
To find my who ever, where ever she may be.

"I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible.
I’m terrified to speak the truth you'd expect that from me.
I’m mixed up, I’ll be blunt.
Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair
And out of my mind. Keeping an eye on the world,
So many thousands of feet off the ground.
I'm over you now I'm not home in the clouds
Showering over your hair."
 
I guess I'll go home now,
I guess I'll go home now,
I guess I'll go home now,
I guess I'll go home.

All Time Low

Why do I feel like I'm not important to you anymore?

Light It Up Like the Fourth of July

That's from an All Time Low song. That CD hasn't left my car in over a week.

Today was alright. Better than most days. I got to sleep in which was really nice.
I don't know. I feel like something is missing.
I wish I knew what it was...
It seems like I'm constantly down about something lately.
My boyfriend and I haven't been doing the best lately.
I've lost two of my best friends, one called me a cranky bitch (I did see losing them coming though, everyone has lost them..)
Big events are coming up that I'm totally not ready for.
It's all just happening, an everyday thing. I've almost become numb to it all.
Like what Buffy sings in the graveyard, I'm just going through the motions.
That's how I feel. It doesn't hurt. It doesn't make me happy.
I'm just kinda, here.

Ignite your bones

I'll start off every post with a lyric for a title.
I'll explain whatever I feel I should explain, I'm not sure what that may be.
I don't know if anyone will read these.
I feel forgotten anymore.